When you feel sad...

I'm not sure where to begin. Do I go through the trials and tribulations of this week? Or do I skip to how I'm feeling? I do not know...

It has been some sort of week. I'm not sure what to call it. Maybe, a snowball week, that might work. Anyways, there are some situations that occurred this week. They are terrible situations. However, they occurred nonetheless.

Nonetheless, I have irky feelings. I'm kind of in the middle. I'm being pulled in all directions of it. It stinks, so I think it would, if I could smell. I have all of these feelings inside.

I really wish I could figure out a way to explain it all. It's just, all of those hard to deal with feelings, you know like - frustration, confusion, exhaustion, sadness, and maybe anger. But all of those mixed together..

I'm sure, sigh, I'm not the only one who feels that way. However, as I walked back from the conference office today, I noticed the sidewalk. Now, the sidewalk was cracked. However, I started noticing that in the cracks, was grass. The grass was growing, so that, the cracks were covered. Then it clicked with me. I feel very cracked right now. However, God will fill me with new growth to fill in the cracks.

Now, from this week alone, I've learned these few things. I've learned patience, understanding, forgiveness, how to stand up for what you believe in, and mostly how to be a friend. I've also learned, just how important it is, to take time for yourself. It's made me realize that I do need that down time every once in awhile. We need that time to process, regroup, destress, debrief, whatever, you want to call it. I know, Steve, you're gloating right now. Yes, I do listen. So, I will work harder on taking time for me. It will be hard. But...I have wonderful friends and family who care.

Even though this situation happened, I do believe that it's all for the best.